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12:26 a.m. - Wednesday, Jan. 02, 2019 I left my parents and took the train to London where I had a hotel booked and invited Daniel over. Met him in the pub and listened to him telling me about this girl he is seeing. They are taking it slowly apparently. She’s 24. Then we came to the apartment, quite a cozy little place near Kings Cross with a teeny kitchen and I cooked a pizza after we’d had sex. Great as usual. Then after the pizza more sex. Then he said he felt a bit anxious and tired after new year’s eve, so not to expect much from him and that he could go if I wasn’t enjoying his company. He said maybe it’s because he is seeing this girl and feels bad but said they weren’t committed yet or emotionally involved. So he wasn’t cheating on her. Though they have had sex. I could see where this was going. He was going cold on me. We watched a film and when it finished he said goodnight and gave me a quick kiss on the lips and rolled over. I went to hug him and he said he was tired. So I rolled off. Then he got his phone out and was reading something. I said “what are you doing? I thought you were tired?” Then he got up and said he had to go, went to the loo, retched a bit and got dressed. Said it was nothing to do with me and that he’d been feeling anxious all day. So I just let him go without protest except to say that obviously it was to do with me because he was leaving a perfectly comfortable bed at midnight. Which I happened to be in.
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